I’ve not been able to muster the strength to write anything. I’ve written to some privately and have spoken to others.
The truth is, I’m in pain. Emotional, no doubt, but, physical, too. It’s as if every inch of my physical self is manifesting the pain that I feel in my heart. I go through a range of emotions, from sadness to anger. Feeling alone and feeling suffocated. Wanting to move forward and pretend none of this happened. But, it did. I am working through it and it will take time. I know this. I know it all. It doesn’t make it easier to feel. There is only so much Ibuprofen can do.
It will get better, I promise me that.
XO, Isabel
Con tiempo mi Amiga..give yourself that. …xoxo.. Onica
Oh Isabel,
Losing a child rips out a part of you that will forever ache. I am sorry to say that almost 10 years later so nights I cry so hard it’s like it was yesterday. However, I can tell you that it becomes less frequent with time, less raw. Love, strength, and peace to you, ,my dear friend. Xoxox
Wherever you are is the right place for you to be right now. Since nothing remains the same, changes will come. Listen to your body. Avoid the word “should,” and await the next phase of your recovery. Mina